Hello, friends!! I have always loved helping people, and I believe that I was born into this role being the oldest of 3 (I am the big sister to 2 younger brothers!). I started babysitting as early as I could, and I knew pretty early on in my teenage years that I wanted to pursue nursing or physical therapy. I chose the nursing route, or as I do strongly believe, that the nursing route chose me :) I have been a pediatric nurse for over 21 years, and have also now been a certified health coach for the last 6 years, and I obtained my personal training certification 4 years ago. I am extremely passionate about helping people heal themselves in their minds/bodies/and spirits through my coaching. As a nurse, I believe that one of my strengths is advocating for my patient's health and well-being; and it's no different now with my clients, as I am a fierce advocate for my clients to be able to live into everything wonderful that they were always meant to be!!!
I thought that I was alone in the ways I was feeling about 5 years ago. I thought that there must be something "wrong" with me because on the outside, things looked "great!". Maybe even "perfect". Great job, great family, great freedom in not being "tied down" by children, a husband, or a job that couldn't be done anywhere else. People would actually say to me that my life seemed so wonderful..."You can do whatever you want, whenever you want, and your work schedule allows you so much freedom! You're healthy, smart, nice, generous, kind, loving...". That all seems like it should add up to the "perfect life", and utter and complete happiness.
So, why was I so sad? Why did I feel pangs of heartache when people would say these things to me? Why was I crying into my pillow every night, wondering what was really my purpose in being on this earth?
The answer was that I was trying so hard, painstakingly hard, to make it look like everything was "OK" on the outside because I knew that I could never let anyone see that on the inside, my soul was dying. And I was tired of pretending. But what was next???
CHOICE 1: Continue to fight against the life that was currently knocking at my door, and therefore, live the rest of my days in mounting pain.
CHOICE 2: Do something DIFFERENT. It definitely sounds so much easier said than done.
If we want to see different results in our lives, then we have to do something different. Einstein once said that the definition of insanity is doing the same things over and over again and expecting different results.
When I look back to that time and I look at the journals I wrote in, or the work I was doing with my own life coach, one word kept popping up every time I spoke about how I wanted to feel and what I really wanted in my life. That word was "PEACE". I wasn't feeling peaceful and I wasn't sure how to start on the road to peace, but I knew that I had to do something different than what I was doing currently in my life. So, I signed up for a HALF-marathon! (Disclaimer: I'm not going to make you run a half-marathon!! LOL!!). I wanted and needed a specific goal that would bring me out of my current very uncomfortable comfort zone (if that makes any sense!), and challenge me in ways that I hadn't been challenged before. I knew it would be hard work and I definitely knew that it would require most of my time off and a strong commitment to the end goal. However, I also knew deep in my core that it had to be better than living in the pain that I was currently living in.
What I have learned is that UNTIL the pain we are in is actually greater than the pain we THINK we might be in on the outside of our comfort zone, change doesn't happen.
It wasn't easy. It was really sad, and lonely, and dark at times. I realized then, that I had been trying for years to walk AROUND the pain, to somehow take a detour that would get me some place more peaceful without having to face my truth face-to-face. I was looking for everything outside of me to change. I wasn't looking in the mirror at myself because that would have been too painful. If outside circumstances would just change, I thought THEN I'll feel better on the inside; THEN I'll be happy; THEN I'll find that peace that I've been searching for this whole time.
As time was passing, and outside circumstances were not changing (but I was definitely still waiting for them to change) I decided to take a yoga class (you know, to help me stretch as I trained for my half-marathon). I liked the class, so I gave it a second shot...and then a third...and then one day, while lying in savasana, it happened. The tears were rolling down my face into my ears, and I could not control them. While I didn't realize it at that moment, I later came to the realization that I was broken open in that moment on that mat. Something had pierced the shell of armor that I was living under for all of these years. What was it you ask?? I was learning to sit with my thoughts in a safe space. I was learning to listen to my inner most thoughts, wishes and desires in a place where I felt supported and seen. And, that my friends, was the beginning of the my healing journey.
It hasn't always been easy and there have been many bumps and setbacks along the way, but I have a clear vision for what I want to my life to look like, feel like and the legacy I want to leave behind after I have squeezed all of the juices out of this one beautiful life that we have been gifted!!! I was back in the driver's seat of my life!
Are you ready to get out of the passenger seat of your life car and step confidently into the driver's seat SO THAT you can live fully into everything absolutely amazing and beautiful that you were always meant to BE? I'm here to help you buckle in and prepare yourself for the RIDE of a lifetime that is YOURS and YOURS ALONE! There never was a YOU before, and there will never be another YOU...YOU, my friend, were meant to SHINE YOUR LIGHT BRIGHTLY INTO THIS LIFE! Let's go!!!